Everything (A.M. Limbo) lyrics - Blue October

So far...so far your life is in limbo

I..I can understand, and I know you're angry.

Um...please get that clarified by your therapist (your therapist, therapist...)

Your life is in limbo right now.

Your life is in limbo right now.

Your life is in limbo right now.

The Money Tree lyrics - Blue October

I'm standin' on an open world

I've gotta try so hard for myself

Not including the ones that I love

I call my family

It's not hard when your focus is a beautiful girl

A brand new baby, she's a baby girl

And yes she is a cutie like her mommy

She looks like her mommy

We both know who we are

And I'm not changing a thing,

I've never changed before

If lovin' me is work, I'm not a job to take

I think we're headin' for the crazy-making heartbreak

I'm wonderin' why I'm sittin' here, alone again

Why you always crush me,

Why it's never easy

Easy, easy, easy, it's not easy

This is you, this is me,

You won't be a part of what we need to be

Not for me, for the future of us three

For our daughter college, family, sudden-health emergencies

You think it's easy pickin' money off my Money Tree?

With two houses, both cars,

I paid off your fucking credit card debt,

Did you already forget? Huh?

You threaten, threaten, threaten, threaten, threaten, huh

Just fucking leave,

Find a man who will put up with this

We both know who we are

And I'm not changing a thing,

I've never changed before

If lovin' me is work, I'm not a job to take

I think we're headin' for the crazy-making heartbreak

I can't help but think

Of how good you are with our baby daughter

Half the time a single mother

When I go away it's so that you can always stay home

And watch your baby grow, bring her up the right way

You never take it that way

We both know who we are

And I'm not changing -

I need support, not a slap in the face

You have to trust me or I'm sure this will blow up in your face

Our love was such an angel, she doesn't even know

We've torn each other down in ways we don't even know

We both know who we are

And I'm not changing a thing,

I've never changed before

If lovin' me is work, I'm not a job to take

I think we're headin' for the crazy-making heartbreak

I can't help but think

Of how good you are with our baby daughter

Half the time a single mother

When I go away it's so that you can always stay home

And watch your baby grow, bring her up the right way

It's me the one who has his family's future at heart

It's you the one who never wants a family apart

We both know that together we can only believe

That if we cut the shit there'd be no reason to leave

For The Love lyrics - Blue October

(Come here... babe why are you crying?

Because I want to stay with you

Your mommy loves you very much)

Communication,

I wait to see if we could ever get together and talk like we used to

We get together and we talk like we used to

But you don't want to

You want a separation

And now that's strike three

I tried everything, I work so hard for you

To constantly hear how I fail and abandon you

I put my heart in a dream

And now that dream it makes sure the baby - she has food to eat-and your fancy house gets paid for you hear me?

You never learned one thing, no, you never believed in me...

So if you're gonna leave-get out - just remember this is what I'm all about;

I do it for the love,

I do it for the rain,

I do it for the passion,

I do it for the pain

I do it for the rush,

I do it for the doubt...

I do it for my daughter, man, 'cause she's what I'm about

I do it for my mom,

I do it for my dad

Do it for my sanity, it's hanging from a thread

I do it for the audience who understands the need

Standing on the stage, cut the shit and let it bleed

So pack it up, pack it in

Write it up, write it down

Just remember I've told you it's what I'm all about

Wait wait wait...

I missed the tour where you told me not to come home again

An ex-boyfriend was taking my place at our first Lamaze

(You've gotta be kidding me)

How hard that was because 'cause your voice so crooked and wrong,

You bury your intentions like motherfucking nuclear bomb (nuclear bomb!)

I lived in a hotel room 'til the day she was born

And I never knew what words to say

That could get us through our first chance at divorce

You promised change and I believed

I walked right back into the same

So if you're gonna leave me ‒ go away

I do it for the love

I do it for the rain

I do it for the passion,

I do it for the pain

I do it for the rush,

I do it for the doubt

I do it for my daughter, man, 'cause she's what I'm about

I do it for my mom,

I do it for my dad,

I do it for my sanity hanging from a thread

I do it for the audience who understands the need

Standing on the stage, cut the shit and let it bleed

I do it for my brother,

I do it for his wife

I do it for my manager, 'cause god he saved my life

I do it for the confidence

I do it for release

I do it 'cause I'm sick of feeling sadness full of peace

I do it for the sunshine

For my friends

I did it for you, for you over and over and over again

But you would never understand

So fuck it!

So pack it up, pack it in, write it up, write it down,

Just remember I've told you it's what I'm all about

(Get out! go away!)

I do it for the love,

I do it for the rain,

I do it for the passion,

I do it for the pain

I do it for the rush,

I do it for the doubt...

I do it for my daughter, man, 'cause she's what I'm about

I do it for my mom,

I do it for my dad

I do it for my sanity, it's hanging from a thread

I do it for the audience who understands the need

Standing on the stage, cut the shit and let it bleed

I do it for the love

For the love

Do it for the love for the love

I do it for the love

Do it do it do it

For the love

For my daughter

So pack it up

Pack it in

Write it up write it down

Just remember I've told you it's what I'm all about.

Drama Everything lyrics - Blue October

Let me start with I've let you go

But you don't get it, though

Politely I've asked you to leave,

But still you follow

It's hard when you're full of heart

When the house you built just falls apart

Well keep the paint fresh, keep the outside clean

Make sure the neighbors see you wear that ring

Don't tell them a thing, they don't know you like me

You're the girl that cries, "Water in the basement"

Everybody stop, wait, look, see

You're the girl that could lie to my face

And fabricate a flood to get through to me

I went away and you found a replacement

So call him, don't call me

To the girl that cries, "Water in the basement"

You drama everything

I heard a good friend once say

"You got one life, live it, 'cause they'll take it away"

From both of us, one day, you know they will

So colour it up, colour it up

Say your last goodbye, I don't give a fuck

Bottoms up, just watch me walk away

I'm here to say that -

I don't need your sorry dreaming

What makes you think you can -

Tell me how I to feel or how hard I should fall

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, now you listen

Oh my, you're not anything I need in my life

No, you're not anything I even want

'cause they don't know you like me

You're the girl that cries, "Water in the basement"

Everybody stop, wait, look, see

You're the girl that could lie to my face

And fabricate a flood to get through to me

I went away and you found a replacement

So call him, don't call me

To the girl that cries, "Water in the basement"

You drama everything

Here's what you gotta do

Hold you head high

Shoot first, man, don't ask why

Yeah, you won't feel the pain at all

Well I guess I, grew this mind

I think for myself and I'm fine

No, I don't need anything from you at all

They don't know you like me

You're the girl that cries, "Water in the basement"

Everybody stop, wait, look, see

You're the girl that could lie to my face

And fabricate a flood to get through to me

I went away and you found a replacement

So call him, don't call me

To the girl that cries, "Water in the basement"

You drama everything

(Fabricate a flood to get through to me)

(So call him, don't call me)

You drama everything

Drama

So much drama

The Flight: Lincoln To Minneapolis lyrics - Blue October

No joke took a breath and then awoke

I was standing in an airport looking like a joke

Saying "Sir, can you help me?

Ma'am could you please?"

So they led me to the pay phone

Flaggin' down the police

"Mr. Officer I know who I am. But the rest of me,

My memory, I just don't understand

I do know that I'm unsafe, man with a plan,

Of gettin' on a plane

Fly away to kill a man"

Like a freight train threat to myself

I gotta history of blackouts, bad mental health so…

Both cops each arm alarm

No harm disarm pat down do the body check

Next thing I was walking on the airfield

Back seat I was headed to the hospital

I’m sorry for the drama that I bring

Through the screen he said

"Son you did the right thing"

Please help me understand

Why you can't talk man to man

But you can stand with your dick in your hand

Why you acting like a pussy, man?

Please help me understand

Why you can't talk man to man

But you can stand with your dick in your hand

You acting like a pussy, man

I was faithful to the wifey now we separated

Used to try to win her back I underestimated

Like a stone sinks down into the complicated fact

That you gave that ass up and never fucking dated

See you're better than that

You're a diamond he's a rough real tough, man

Call a brother back

Just a pussy with a dick

Stand up and be a fucking man

Hiding from the husband

Scared to make a peep and

Livin' up in Lincoln

Now I'm in the deep end

Think I'm gonna break in smash your fucking face in

Cut you up with lemon juice

And watch you try to fuck then

Please help me understand

Why you can't talk man to man

But you stand with your dick in your hand

Why you acting like a pussy, man?

Please help me understand

Why you can't talk man to man

But you stand with your dick in your hand

Acting like a pussy, man

Is that beat up...is that beat up yet?

(please help me understand)

(why can't talk man to man)

Is that beat up...is that beat up yet?

I wish that I were man enough

To turn my back and leave

To forget all the tricks you pull,

And hide them in my sleeve

I know what's best for table play,

I know what's best for me

I know this life is way too short, to let you kill a dream.

I know you're capable to only love me when I’m there

I know it's hell to keep the peace

Inside your heart and head

But I'm always gone and what you're left with is my song

You're sick of listening to anything turn me off instead.

You used to call me cool, believed in what I'd say

Never seen me as a failure or a mother fucking fake

But over time we changed into this little ball of hate

We shared a bedroom,

But the bedroom had a bed we never made so

I'm done with holding this in

I'm done with being a friend

I'd like it all to just end like brand new ink on a pen

No one can stop me….try to stop me...

Just try to stop me...

Please help me understand

Why you can't talk man to man

But you stand with your dick in your hand

You're acting like a pussy, man

Please help me understand

Why you can't talk man to man

But you can stand limp dick in your hand

You're acting like a pussy, man

Any Man In America lyrics - Blue October

I only note spending time away

I only note the truth is spoken

Best when brutally so honestly.

I'll let you know you set

The standards lyrically for me

One single middle finger

Say raise it up

My speech will always be free

Like Martin Luther King

You had meaning to me

Single-handedly saving music starving industry

A hip hop legend with skin like invisible ink

Black even though he was whiter than me

He was the first to be colorless

Speaking for all of us

Then you let us into your family

Mother father brother sister wife daughter

Damn right in front of me

That's when I miss my daughter desperately

Your mocking bird puts dents in me

While touring press and reliving my song hate me

I was losing custody

I never even saw that shit.

How she played me

And planned and sought it fit

To turn that trick and financially she would benefit

My first and probably only billboard hit

Was gonna pay for my two year old's college

I should have hid that shit

So she couldn't spend that shit

It took twenty years of working

Just to earn that shit

Now word for word I've listened,

Heard and I'm done.

Done.

[Chorus]

Like you don't know.

You act like you believe it.

That you're in control.

It's just your legal system though

They don't think about you

No they don't care about you.

Now every man in America take back your control

Like you don't know.

You act like you believe it.

That you're in control.

It's just your legal system though

They don't think about it

No, they don't care about it

Now every man in America take back your control.

So I kept my business quiet

Just like my lawyer said.

And I tried to focus all

My anger in my work instead.

I was succeeding at self reliant

But inside my soul is dead.

I had to be the sole provider

But not allowed to be the dad.

Literally they took her from me.

Legally they did! They did!

But I'm not a fucking book

So fuck your book in Lincoln I said

Fuck the judge. Fuck that county

Fuck your family too.

Yeah fuck everybody that took my baby girl, Blue

I'm way too strong

I work my ass off all day long.

And I'm gone for months at a time

And you keep sitting there and lying

Bitching "Come back home"

I hate you, hate you god.

And then you came back home

And filed for another fucking divorce.

I'm sick of crying I'm sick of you instead

I'm not sick, or stuck in my head.

Any other man in American can get screwed just like me.

[Chorus]

You won't understand, probably never will.

Listen slowly I'll let you know the deal

Lying ass play the judge with your crying ass

You had your nose wide open when you saw the cash.

Grimy bitch growing tired of you trying shit.

Women run the courts, men provide the chips.

Well eat up bitch until you had enough bitch.

But take my kids; you can kiss both my nuts bitch.

Telling lies cause daddy's always on the road.

But you the one fucking like a groupie at a show.

Money hungry so you try to take my youngest from me.

You a dummy honey I'll chase you across the country.

Bring the drama to you mama and you mama's mama

Cause we all know you chasing after commas.

Couple checks few houses and Gucci blouses

You changing dicks like you changing outfits.

Constitution now a day's got the daddies losing.

Lot of fathers getting fucked like prostitution

[Chorus 3x]

You Waited Too Long lyrics - Blue October

("If you think your marriage is so great, why the fuck are you turning to

Other people's wives for comfort? "

"Can... can I tell you what, what was going on here? "

"Yeah, please do.")

Did he really get to take you home?

I'm surprised that you chose him.

Surprised that I'm not in a halfway home.

I'm not surprised I never saw you around.

When they brought me home.

So who does this separation work for?

So which one of us will wage war?

War.

It's not about the feelings that we shared before.

No.

Cause your words don't calm anymore.

Gah, no more.

What did you want me for?

How do you call

What we have love when you don't even notice,

The look upon my face,

Yeah I've done this before,

You'll be sorrier when I'm gone.

Yeah you waited too long.

And did you really think I'd take it,

When information fabricated.

Look I give you credit for pathetically thinking that you could make this up.

Watch this.

She turns about face, he stays in her house invading your space.

Helpless, you know that I'm away,

A mac truck sitting in a hotel crazy

Red light on the phone.

Blinking like it's telling me there's something wrong or right

You don't... I need to know

How do you call

What we have love when you don't even notice,

The look upon my face,

Yeah I've done this before,

You'll be sorrier when I'm gone.

Yeah you waited too long.

How do you call

What we have love when you don't even notice,

The look upon my face,

Yeah I've done this before,

You'll be sorrier when I'm gone.

Yeah you waited too,

Yeah you waited too long.

This is urgent,

Call 'em emergencies

I don't know how to stop 'em.

More capgun than a pistol,

You fill your clip with lies...

Then load each one and fire it right over my head.

I need a finish line, this pressure's too high.

I should have seen the end was coming sooner than I ever did.

Reached down to the pit of my soul,

I found things that I didn't wanna know were there

I guess the wait is over.

Oh, how do you call

What we have love when you don't even notice,

The look upon my face,

Yeah I've done this before,

You'll be sorrier when I'm gone.

Yeah you waited too long.

Oh, how do you call

What we have love when you don't even notice,

The look upon my face,

Yeah I've done this before,

You'll be sorrier when I'm gone.

Yeah you waited too long.

The Honesty lyrics - Blue October

Let's get it straight

Let's get it straight from the top

You're beginning with your usual main ingredient

You're good at talking

When you say it

Are you meaning it?

I don't wanna give you my heart

If you're not completing it

I'm blown away at how your family

Your friends just accept it though

No one's ever told you "no"

Can't expect you to know how to love

When it was somethin' you were never taught

But honesty

Is the one true way to start again

Just be good to yourself and love goes unspoken

Instead of always broken

But honestly

When your heart decides

To let someone in

Just be cautious of the next one

You win

I never wanted to play what was mean to screw me up

But I see you're into playing it

Makes me feel sorry for the way you like displaying it

Now the truth is really told

You are betraying it

I gotta say

I don't think I ever felt you hold us up

Were you embarrassed by me?

Ohhh...

Somethin' I'm gonna have to pay for

But honesty

Shoulda been the one true way to start again

Just be straight with yourself and love goes unspoken

Instead of always broken

But honestly

If your heart decides to feel again

Just be careful of the next one

How completely let down

How completely let down I feel

How completely in awe

When I can see it all

Now I can see it all

But honesty

Coulda been the one true way to love again

Just be straight with yourself and love goes unspoken

Instead of always broken

But honestly

If your heart decides to love again

Just be thankful for the next one

*Thankful, Thankful, Thankful* [x3]

I'm gonna see it all [x2]

I can't wait [x2]

I'm gonna keep it up [x2]

I can't wait [x2]

I'm gonna see it all [x2]

I can't wait [x2]

I'm gonna keep it up [x2]

I can't wait [x2]

I'm gonna see it all [x2]

I can't wait [x2]

I'm gonna keep it up [x2]

I can't wait [x2]

I'm gonna keep it up [x4]

Yeah, yeah, yeah

The Getting Over It Part lyrics - Blue October

I tried and tried

I tried so many things that wouldn't take

Like stop the leak, prevent the flood, some say

But nothing helped at all

And you're not listening to what I say

You waste the time for memories made

Communication has not made its way to your agenda for today

Or any other day

'Cause this is the last time I'm gonna say it

If you come around here, you know

We're gonna have some problems, though

'Cause yeah, we're over

Get over it, though

I've seen that look before

Leave that shit at your door

'Cause yeah, we're over

Get over it, though

Now I'm shouting out

You gotta hear me

Can you end this now

I'm tired of waiting

You don't get the point

And you don't get control

And we both have a chance

If you just let go

You can't have me tonight, tomorrow night, the next day

For anyone or anything

And anyway, I'm not asking you to stay

You're not my fucking problem, one you just throw away

Let's burn this house we built up down and simply walk away

If you come around here, you know

We're gonna have some problems, though

'Cause yeah, we're over

Get over it, though

I've seen that look before

Leave that shit at your door

'Cause yeah, we're over

Yes, we're over

I'm gonna win this conversation

Look who's got the microphone

I can't believe you're stuck on always trying to fuck me up

Yeah, I think you ruined us all

Yeah, I truly believe you fucking ruined us all

If you come around here, you know

We're gonna have some problems, though

'Cause yeah, we're over

Get over it, though

I've seen that look before

Leave that shit at your door

'Cause yeah, we're over

Yes, we're over

The Worry List lyrics - Blue October

I'm tired and twisted, barely breathing, buried in the dark...

A could've been.

Don't be concerned, that's just the power of a breaking heart...

How good am I hiding it?

Look, I've got some bad intentions. Guilty as fucking charged.

Still standing stable, more than able, cause I know who you are.

I know the birthdays, anniversaries, all the first days I missed.

I regret them all, but

But now I know this;

I know that God exists. I held her in my arms.

I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong.

Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way.

I'm really fine and Mar' there's nothing we haven't talked about.

So take me off your worry list, I said "Throw it away"

Yeah, this is what my life is about.

I might've been gone but I never walked out.

I've taken a thousand red eyes to change your point of view

Of what kind of man would take the trust you break... and still follow through.

Cause I'm standing right here and you may not show up.

Our same gate 14 where honestly, I'm just sick of calling your bluff.

And it's just embarrassing. I nearly threw up.

While I'm trying hard to change the things I always screw up.

And at the top of my list, this visitation is no relationship.

But I've got to make the best of it.

Cause I know;

I know that God exists. I held her in my arms.

I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong.

Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way.

And I'm doing fine and I got plenty of friends around.

Take me off your worry list, just throw it away.

Well it's time to stand up on my own for her.

Cause I'm packing it up, and I'm coming today.

I couldn't wait to finally pick my family up.

Everything is quiet and covered in snow.

There's something wrong here... Nobody's at home.

Oh, no, no, no, no, no.

Now, I'm back in the driver's seat.

Heading back home. Yeah, back to Texas... On my own.

Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way.

I'm doing fine and I got plenty of friends around.

Take me off your worry list, just throw it away.

It's time to stand up on my own for her.

I'm packing it up and I'm coming today.

This is what my story's about,

I might have been gone but I never walked out.

I'm packing it up and I'm coming today.

This is what your story's about.

My pretty little girl, can you figure it out?

If it helps to know so there is no doubt,

Just listen to the stories.

Not everything is glorious.

Some hurt. Some love. Some shout.

I fought the world and I lost that bout.

And you are what my album's about.

I might've been gone but I never walked out.

The Follow Through lyrics - Blue October

Pride

It leaves you hollow

Another attempt

Just to settle the score

A war, you know the one you built it up

It's real defining

Humiliation

Knocks at your door

And you say I blow up

I say you cave in

We never found the line between

The real and pretend

You know you should accept it

This is really the end

I know for sure, it's what I have to do

Is follow through

You're everything I ever want to be

The only one I ever need to know

I'd wait for you till time lay down to sleep

And I'd sneak across the world to let her know

Yeah that's what I do

Yeah I follow through

Oh I follow through

And here I stand

I'm too close but still you're far away

You never tried but I did

And we still remain divided

Oh I can't believe that your heart's still beating

It's beating for me at all

How sad of you

But I'm not sad at all

And you say I blow up

I say you cave in

We never found the line between

The real and pretend

You know you should accept it

This is really the end

I know for sure, it's what I have to do

Is follow through

You're everything I ever want to be

The only one I ever need to know

I'd wait for you till time lay down to sleep

And I'd sneak across the world to let her know

And as it falls down into night we run away

And once again divided

But each one knows just what we have to do

We do

We have to... follow through

I will lay down my heart

I will let you go

That's what's best for us all

I will lay down my heart (cause now we stand beneath the clouds and God above)

I will let you go (like we did before)

That's what's best for us all (but this time for her)

(I'll follow through)

Everything I ever want to be

The only thing I ever need to know

I'd wait for you till time lays down to sleep

And I'd sneak across the world to let her know

Hold my heart

Patiently

And take my hand

Walk with me

Cause when the evening comes

We'll set the world on fire

And I was wrong

Let me help you live on

You're everything I ever want to be

The only one I ever need to know

I'd wait for you till time lay down to sleep

And I'd sneak across the world to let her know

And as it falls down into night we run away

And once again divided

But each one knows just what we have to do

We do

We have to... follow through

Hold my heart

Patiently

Take my hand

Walk with me

Cause when the evening comes

We'll set the world on fire

And I was wrong

Let me help you live on

Any Man In America (2011)

• Everything (A.M. Limbo)
• The Feel Again (Stay)
• The Money Tree
• For The Love
• Drama Everything
• The Chills
• The Flight: Lincoln To Minneapolis
• Any Man In America
• You Waited Too Long
• The Honesty
• The Getting Over It Part
• The Worry List
• The Follow Through 

The Feel Again (Stay) Lyrics – Blue October

I see the sun go down on the river
I feel the wind blow out, would've stayed to gray
I feel the air around you it's kinda closing in
Do you feel it fall or do you feel at all again?

I see the world keep moving as I stumble
They seem to move much faster than me
And while I sit in my four cornered room dividing hearts for a little girl
While I can't be anything but who I am

And I wish you'd stay
That was the beginning of the two of us, the start of our show
Stay stay stay
I would never have let go

And I see the sun go up as your image
And I feel the weight of your eyes as you stare
I feel it all when you, when you first, when you kissed my lips
You used to make me feel at home, you made me feel at home, you made me feel again

Oh and that's when you used to say will you stay and not let go
That was just the two of us to think about, the stars of our show
And you would say I'd wish you'd stay and I'd never go
Oh I would never have let go!

So take this heart of mine
You've taken it a hundred thousand times
But this time, this time I'm gonna take it with me

I see the door close down behind you
I watch your face turn from glow to straight gray
I see the moon go up and it shines this glory on my face
Who would know? Who would know? Who would know!
How we would stay and we should stay and never let go
There's just three of us to think about now in our show, our show, our show
I'd think we'd stay, we'd just stay, and then we'd know
That we should never let go
Something to think about oh...
Just look into those big brown eyes and you'd just fall apart
We should stay, we should stay, at least she'd know
That we should never let go
No, no, let go, go...

I wish you'd stay
I wish you'd stay...

The Chills Lyrics – Blue October

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,

Take my hand
maybe we should run away
maybe we should disappear
leave everything behind
like the useless things
boxes labeled memories
the sudden health emergencies
yeah we could leave those things behind

Show me, show me arms that reach for all we can be
through understanding, I tried forgiveness,
I faced the past, it's what I witnessed

why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you?
I only hear your words that you say are true
but you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
you can catch me if you wanted to, oh

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,

Now, why you gotta say goodbye
when you know you're gonna come with me
no, can't afford to leave and stay
you're gonna have to just build one way

So tell me, tell me all the things you told me we could be
through understanding, I tried forgiveness,
I faced the facts, it's what I witnessed

why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I only hear your words that you say are true
but you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
you can catch me if you wanted to
I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I feel like I'm so high, I'm feeling so high
c-catch me, c-c-catch me

why does a heart always have to break
(when you're trying way too hard), have to break
(yes she'll see right though you), have to break
oh communication, yeah conversation,
it breaks down
Now there will be nothing to talk about,
(absolutely nothing, just blah blah blah)

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,

why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I only hear your words that you say are true
but you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
you can catch me if you wanted to
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Can catch me, c-c-catch me
Ohhhhhh.

"Approaching Normal" (2009)

Weight Of The World Lyrics – Blue October

A blackout in the room again
A busted lip and broken skin.
I wake up in the bathroom
And dare not bother asking
Why the mirror's cracked and all I see
Are shards of glass inside of me.

There's voices there to dare me,
My father's here to scare me.
My mother sits beyond the door she's
Curled up crying on the floor,
Look at what her son's done.

When the weight of all the world's gone wrong.
It's gone wrong again.
Gone fucking wrong.
It's gone wrong again.

Well liars they leave a guilty trail.
And let me tell you something people,
I've been lying for fucking years.
That must be why I'm standing in this space.
Disregarding that I've created these monsters
They're on fucking both of my sides,
So I wipe the blood from both of their eyes.
From all four of their eyes.

And while I wait for wounds to heal
I see you by the window sill,
Your heart's torn out
A plastic spoon
When honesty lit up that room
So I stole the pillowcase to clean
This mess I've made of someones dream.
Now you've seen what I've done,

When the weight of all the world's gone wrong.
It's gone wrong again
Gone fucking wrong
It's gone all wrong again.

This room is old and wise
I fall onto the bed and wonder,
"How did I get here?"
The little boy who would argue with a tree
Just fucking thump his head
And he'll turn back to normal.

Now why is that what I see?
Don't bother trusting me
Don't bother waiting
Don't bother changing things that won't give into changing
Just let me go away.
I'm packed
Whenever
I'm down
Whenever.

Say It Lyrics – Blue October

It's all about esteem
It's all about dreams
It's all about making the best out of everything
You'll know when you're fine
Cause you'll talk like a mime

You'll fall on your face
You get back up and you're doing fine
"a considerate clown, a preachy preaching machine"
Is one of the sweetest things you would say about me
But I don't have the time for your distorted esteem
Why are you toying with my mind?

I don't wanna hear you say it
I don't wanna hear you say it
I don't wanna hear you say it
Now you're fucking with my pride

You think you're smarter than me
Well everyone knows you will never be smarter than me
That's how it goes
I gained forty pounds because of you
Was there an "S" on my chest
Well I confess, you were too much stress
I'd have a heart attack at best
So now I breathe it out, I breathe it out
I spit it on the crowd cause they lift me up, they lift me up, they lift me up

When I'm feeling down
What am I spitting out? spitting out, something we never talk about
It's called my ...mind

I don't wanna hear you say it
I don't wanna hear you say it
I don't wanna hear you say it
Now you're messing with my pride

Well, I'm sick of standing in your line
So now you'll have to take it
Take this to heart
I will never let you fuck me over
Stop talking down to me your war is old
Your game is over
So here's my coldest shoulder

I don't wanna hear you say it
I don't wanna hear you say it
I don't wanna hear you say it
Now you're messing with my pride

Something we don't talk about
Something we don't talk about

Dirt Room Lyrics – Blue October

I'm like a ghost
I'll be living in a dirt room
Waiting for the day to be closer
To the window when you're home
I'll be standing by your back door
Reaching for the knife in my coat
I'm going to put it to your throat
Sweaty piggy, you're a bad man
What a fucking sad way to go
Your mother raised you as a joke
I should have wiped away a burden
Use the curtain in the kitchen to choke
You

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
Look what I do to you

Oh god then you awoke
You started screaming through the duct tape
Don't ever think I'm letting you go
I'm busy digging you a hole
Now you'll be living in a dirt room
Breathing through the straw of your own
Come on
I really think that this is fun for the money
I'll make it comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album!

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
But I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you

And now I see you, oh
'Cause your back's against the wall
And finally you're mine
You're mine

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you

I really think that this is fun for the money
We'll make you comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album!

Been Down Lyrics – Blue October

I dreamt you seduced me
Just to walk away
I dreamt you inspired
Then rewired what I say
I dreamt you spread your bottom wings
And pulled me to the bed
But then I woke up feeling nauseous
You danced around my head

[Chorus:]
So tell me
How long, how long have I been down?
How long, how long have I been down?
How long, how long have I been down?
Down

I dreamt you burned my fingers
An automatic sting
I dreamt you called me beautiful
Then asked to hear me sing
I dreamt you sat, invited me
To crawl within your space
But then I woke up feeling nauseous
Girl, you danced around my face

[Chorus:]
So tell me
How long, how long have you been down?
How long, how long have you been down?
How long, how long have you been down?
Down, down

Why can't we work when we both try?
We try, we try, we try
Why can't we work, we both try?
Why can't we work when we both try
Try, try, we we we try

I meant to sympathize I meant to be a friend
I know apologizing wont erase the end
But I learn that moving on, is where I must begin
Because when our colors mixed
We couldn't fix the way they wouldn't blend

[Chorus:]
Tell me
How long, how long have we been down?
How long, how long have we been down?
How long, how long have we been down?
Down, down, yeah

And I wish that only greatness follow you around
I hope to God, you find a way to keep from down
When you do I hope you share it all with me
Please try to understand, yeah to understand me
Just try to understand me, yeah understand me

How long, how long have we been down yeah.
Down, down, down, yeah

My Never Lyrics – Blue October

Will you think of me,
In time?
It's never my luck,
So nevermind.
I wanna say your name,
But the pain starts
Again,
It's never my luck,
So nevermind.

[Chorus:]
I had a dream that you were with me,
And it wasn't my fault,
You roll me over,
Flipped me over,
Like a somersault.
And that doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And I stood outside her
Heaven.

Will you wait for me,
In time,
It's never my luck,
So never mind.
And yeah I've lost a lot of what I never expect to ever return
I tend to push 'em 'til the pushing's turned from hurting to burn,
I always take them to that place they always wanted to go,
Then end up dancing 'round
This clown commands,
Applause at a show...

[Chorus]

And I could only dream of you and sleep,
But I never see sunlight again,
I can try to be with you, but some how I'll end up just losing a friend,
And I can only reach for you
Relate to you,
I'm losing my friend...
Where did she go?
Where?

[Chorus:]

Will you let me into your heaven?

Should Be Loved Lyrics – Blue October

Stop staring, you're the reason I feel so unhappy all the time, look
I've given you everything I know how
Your standing on the top of my shoe
Your keeping me from gaining ground
Look I'm sorry if you feel like I let you down

Can you tell me what have I done so wrong
To you
Tell me what am I supposed to do

I should be loved by you,
That I know is true
I can't breathe when you're around!
No, I should be held at night
That I know is right
I can't breathe when you're around!

You're too scared, scared of all of it
I get that feeling I'm talking to the wall
Can you hear me at all?
Look, my world was shaking my mind was quaking, my heart kept breaking
I threw it against the wall
Can anyone feel me at all?

So, can you tell me what have I done so wrong
To you
Tell me what am I supposed to do?
I got a feeling you're falling out of love with me
Tell me who am I supposed to be?

I should be loved by you
That I know is true
I can't breathe when you're around!
No, I should be held at night
That I know is right
I can't breathe when you're around!
Yeah I can't breathe when you're around!!
Look I can't breathe!

I should be loved by you
That I know is true
I can't breathe when you're around!
I should be held
I should be held
I can't breathe when you're around!
No, I can't breathe when you're around!
No, I can't breathe!

Kangaroo Cry Lyrics – Blue October

Losing my control
Here it is the day I have to go
Just sit beside me
I can't let this show
How sick I feel to leave you so alone
God I'm terrified

We've lost respect for decency
When one can turn our world into an ant pile
We run circles, no direction do I see
The dust has blinded you, the dust has blinded me

I kissed her on the cheek
And then I waved goodbye
She had the saddest look I've seen in years
A kangaroo cry
A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by
We have to live by
Because we have to live

[Chorus]
And you choose to break our families
Tell me you've used all precautions known
And I'll stand beside the ones who stood alone
How long will we have to sing until you finally bring our sons, our daughters home?
We'll let the prayers start healing, what time's been stealing

We only want to feel as close as we can be
Use hands for holding on to your precious family
Just believe in all who shine
The light to help you see
Cause if I believe in you, will you believe in me?

I kissed her on the cheek
And then I waved goodbye
She had the saddest look I've seen in years
A kangaroo cry
A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by
We have to live by
Because we have to live

[Chorus]

Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on

We'll let the prayers start healing, when time's been stealing
Start healing
Start healing

[Chorus]

Picking Up Pieces Lyrics – Blue October

I really need to talk with you
I keep stepping on the vein
That keeps my lifeline flowing through
I wanna be your perfect stick of glue
But I don't feel perfect at all
Sad and insecure flaw

I find it hard to hold conversations
I get sweaty sick and I wanna walk away
No, it's not you it's strictly me in this situation
I'm wondering will it ever go away...just go away, still

Sometimes I feel like weeping
Awake and when I'm sleeping
Perfecting how to put a game face on

This puzzle I've been keeping
Has been in hiding creeping out the closet door
Spilling out onto the floor

How long will I be picking up pieces
How long will I be picking up my heart

Listen...
I'll be as honest as I feel
I'm getting more paranoid and I'm hearing things
And they never turn out real
It feels like my heart is made of pure steel
It's just so heavy all the time

Yea I'm scared of death
And I'm scared of living
I gave up on the past cause it's unforgiving
I misplaced my trust

I watched my word begin to rust
I'm a balloon about to bust
I need a place for reliving

Sometimes I feel like weeping
Awake and when I'm sleeping
Perfecting how to put a game face on

And this puzzle I've been keeping
Has been in hiding creeping out the closet door
Spilling out onto the floor

How long will I be picking up pieces
How long will I be picking up my heart

How long (in another space and time)
Will I be picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
How long (its getting oh so hard to find)
Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
But I still walk on

Jump Rope Lyrics – Blue October

Remember how you used to say
"you couldn't wait till tomorrow for a brand new day"
No fuss when ya had to ride the bus
You could add a little blush
Just to paralyze your school crush

Now your older and the weight upon your shoulder
Makes the world a little colder
No more hidin in the old days
Be strong
Don't give up hope
It will get hard
Cause life's like a jump rope

Up down when it gets hard remember life's like a jump rope

There'll be a bump there will be a bruise
There'll be alarms and there will be a snooze
There'll be a path that you will get to choose
There'll be a win and there will be a lose

You have to hold your head up high and
Watch all the negative go by
Don't you ever be ashamed to cry
You go ahead
Cuz life's like a jump rope

I want to tell you that everything will be okay
That everything will eventually turn itself to gold
Keep pushin through it all
Don't follow, lead the way
Don't lose yourself or your hope

Remember life's like a jump rope

Blue Skies Lyrics – Blue October

[Chorus:]
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away, boys
Don't take them away
Cause I'll never stop

I've been to both knees
Raise my hands up to the skies, forgive me
Is something out there far beyond the clouds?
I'm asking help me
Help me to see the world
Through baby eyes and hold me closely
I need a fresh start on the roller coaster
Made for coasting
It's time to wake up, time to make up
Time to shake these memories
It's time to leave the past in the past
And lace up a new set of shoestrings
I want the world to know I've got your back
Through up and down, see
So we can sit together, side by side
Through amazing

[Chorus:]
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away, boys
Don't take them away
Cause I'll never stop

So I've broken every bone
And fought through what felt never-ending
I thought my head was made of sadness
But my heart is mending
I scream at sunsets
Give applause to what I can't control
Then somehow laugh at how
The moon divides an ocean solo
I wanna be that ocean
I wanna shine like that
I want to smile so big my daughter jumps into my lap
And I wanna tell her daddy's fine
And always plans to be
Then take her in my arms
This is what we'll always see

[Chorus:]
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Never take them away, boys
Don't take them away
Yeah, shhh

And when I'm gone
I won't go screaming in the end
I'll give you everything my life amounts to
So raise your life up with me
And baby, let's go dancing
Come on!

[Chorus:]
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away, boys
Don't take them away
Cause I'll never stop

Well I've broken every bone
And fought through what felt never-ending
I thought my head was made of sadness
My heart is mending
I scream at sunsets
Give applause to what I can't control
Then somehow laugh at how
The moon divides an ocean solo
I wanna be that ocean
I wanna shine like that
I want to smile so big my daughter jumps into my lap
And I wanna tell her daddy's fine
And always plans to be
Then take her in my arms
This is what we'll always see

[Chorus:]
Just blue skies
Keep calling on blue skies
I'll never take them away, little girl
I'll never take them away
Cause I'll never stop loving my blue skies

Blue Does Lyrics – Blue October

Blue does
Everything I've never seen before
Blue does everything I've never seen before

She's the answer to the prayer I hadn't found
She's the answer to the silence...she's my sound
Oh what a girl
Oh what a beautiful girl ...she is

Blue does
Everything I've never seen before
Blue does everything I've never seen before

She's the answer to the prayer I hadn't found
She's the answer to the silence...she's my sound
Oh what a girl
Oh what a beautiful girl ...she is
Oh what a girl
Oh what a beautiful girl ...she is

The End Lyrics – Blue October

Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn,
Worms squeezing their way through my toes
Tonight that's how it goes.
I'm at your window kneeling quiet,
I thought at least I'd maybe try to get your head right your heart right
"Let him go!"

Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floor as he embraces every inch of you
The woman I adore.
I can't believe the way you're bending
Can't believe this neverending moaning asking him for more
Begging him for more

How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home"
I have to fix this on my own
Replace my heart,
Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end
Replace my heart,
I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping.....end

I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched her,
From her feet across her knees, inside her sweetest spot
He pleased and pleased her.
I turned around and tried to take control, but no control was capable
It was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go.

I squeezed the life into my brain
Like pushing knives into a vein
I've gotta get, I said I've gotta get inside
So to the back window I crawl in silent
Standing in the darkness of my living room
This used to be my home

How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home"
I'm moving forward to the bedroom door
Replace my heart
Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end
Replace my heart
I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping...end

I turn the doorknob with two fingers to be slow enough to sneak into the room among the corner darkness gloom
I had to see this happening.
He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang and bounced off every wooden walled room
And that's when all went silent blank except for the color red
As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed
I said "I know I'm not allowed to be here. I just had to see how good your new man really fucks you. Cause you both been fucking me."

"So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pair
I tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stare
I don't want to alarm you, but I figured we could end this in what seems easy quick and painless
Man, so I'll get down to business
I choose you first, there's a gun, it's at your head
So laugh at me one more time but keep your face inside the bed
You sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I've said."
I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red

How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home"
I have to fix this on my own

Then the screaming oh the screaming
It's nice to see you scared
Of such a weak and stupid husband
Who knows you never really cared
I'll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head
Was all this worth it knowing you have just seconds left to live?

Now think about your answer, as you lay face down on the bed
I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger and all I saw was red
I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back
Then placed the barrel in my mouth
All I saw was black.

Graceful Dancing Lyrics – Blue October

Describe the pain
That choked your reality
It's all in your mind he said
You have to go graceful dancing

I closed the door on the war I started last Halloween
I'm gonna be fine again
I have to keep graceful dancing

Here we are
You're a superstar on your own
And I'm looking over your shoulder, getting older
And god only knows

That here we are
And you're a superstar on your own
Yea here we are

The sunset rains, like a bullethole
Trees only seem for hanging
The moon is a target range
And rivers seem only for drowning

You ball the blame
Then you starve to finish your painting
Its gonna take time my friend
You have to keep graceful dancing

Here we are
And you're a superstar on your own
And I'm looking over your shoulder getting older
And god only knows

Here we are
And you're a superstar on your own
Here we are

78Triple6 Lyrics – Blue October

Seven eight triple six [4x]
I strap my sneakers on and sneak in to the ga-rage
Today I'm relaxing gotta get my scooter on
I'm gonna roll away I'm gonna hit the day
I'm gonna scoot away my troubles on my scooter yay
I call my boys from the mothafuckin' area
They're gonna meet me on the corner scooters blaring yah
We're taking corners at 15 miles an H
We'll ride as far as just 2 gallons gonna take us today

78666 [8x] Scooter Mafia [2nd 4th 6th and 8th times]

Well let me tell you how I'm feeling when I'm high on my bike
I'm rolling peaceful through the city kinda purrin' tonight
You wanna ride with me? You wanna slide with me?
You wanna get up on my scooter to the sky with me?
We're riding late night, formation real tight
You think your scooter has a bug, well check my scooter bite
We keep it low down and stop the show now
??

78666 [16x] Scooter Mafia [every 2nd time]

Scooter mafia [5x]

I'm the original crooner I don't even want a tune-up

"Foiled" (2006)

You Make Me Smile Lyrics – Blue October

Some kind of light
at the end
When touching
the edge of her skin

Once so hard to speak
Now so easy to play around
Catching your eye you know
That eye that slapped you in your face
calls you a puppy
Well how do you say
I was hypnotized
Hypnotized

My words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

And could you be the one that's not afraid
To look me in the eye
I swear I would collapse
If I would tell how I think you fell
From the sky

My words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

It's the feeling I get
My palms with sweat
Like some kind of daydream
I'll never forget
I'm stuck in this spin
Why does it begin
By touching the edge of her skin

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

She's My Ride Home Lyrics – Blue October

We talked
Together sharpening the knife
Like killing partners for a life
Hey we can hide the bodies on the ride home

Now here we are
We're licking skin to wipe us clean
Strike a match, pour gasoline
Ditch the scene and watch this city burn
Asleep, my life will be a pillow steering wheel turn

I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares if no one else believes
So I, set fire to everyone around
But I told you
I told you
We'd do it

So ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won

We Drive
To leave the past and clear the mind
to watch the sunset set its time
I swear you'll find
I'm your ride home

Now close your eyes
its' getting dark and the highways clear
No sign of life from front to rear
Its just you my dear
On the ride home
We're going home

I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares if no one else believes
So I, set fire to everyone around
But I told you
I told you
We'd do it

So ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won

We talked
Together sharpening a knife
Like killing partner for a life
Hey we can hide the bodies on the ride home
Cause we're going home

I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares if no one else believes
So I, set fire to everyone around
But I told you
I told you
We'd do it

So ha ha ha ha (we won)
ha ha ha ha (oh yeah we won)
ha ha ha ha (we won)
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won
Yeah we won

Into The Ocean Lyrics – Blue October

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove that I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

What If We Could Lyrics – Blue October

What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold and meet some
Where inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

2, 3, 4...

On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah, whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

I'm glad to say that we've met
But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side

So go on
Go on be your own
Go on be your own star

What if we could?
Where would we go?
If it felt right
Would you want me to know
I would meet you
Would you meet me

It's like a last chance
For a first dance
You're a sunrise
Can't somehow exist
I would meet you
Would you meet me

I'm glad to say that we've met
But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side

So go on
Go on be your own
Go on be your own star

A superstar in my eyes
In my eyes

Look in my eyes
Just look in my eyes
My eyes
My eyes!!!

What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold and meet some
Where inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah, whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

God I would
God I would
I would meet you
Would you meet me

I would meet you
I would meet you
I would meet you

Hate Me Lyrics – Blue October

(If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me.)

(”Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon.
I was just calling to see how you ware doing.
You sounded really uptight last night.
It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too.
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK,
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication.
You know I love you, and...
Take care honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure.
See ya. Bye bye”)

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

[Children voices:]
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming,
if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me.
I can't believe you actually picked me

[Girl:] Hey Justin! [x12]

Let It Go Lyrics – Blue October

Where do you go
When the day is long?
And where does your heart beat
And who is wrong?

Why do I feel this way?
Why do I kneel?
How could I let it go?
Why do I feel?
Why do I feel?
Why?

Follow me home
Through the, the maze and on
I'll show you the road
That I led you the wrong way on

Why did I go that way?
Why do I steal?
How could I let her go?
Why do I feel?

Oh why did I go that way?
Why do I steal?
How could I let her go?
Why do I feel?
Why do I feel?
Why?

Why?
Why did I go that way?
Why do I need?
How could I let her go?
Why do I feel?

Oh why did I go that way?
How could I steal?
Oh how could I?
How could I?
How could I?

How could I?
How could I?

Congratulations Lyrics – Blue October (feat. Imogen Heap)

Is that seat taken
Congratulations
Would you like to take a walk with me

My mind it kind of goes fast
I try to slow it down for you
I think I'd love to take a drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

I came to see the light in my best friend
You seemed as happy as you'd ever been
My chance of being open was broken
And now you're Mrs. him.

My words they don't come out right
But I'll try to say I'm happy for you
I think I'm going to take that drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

And I can't change this
I can never take it back
But now I can't change your mind
(You left me)
And I can't change this
I can never take this back
But now I can't change your mind
can't change your mind
(You left me)
Can't change you mind
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)

Go away
Make it go away
Please.

Overweight Lyrics – Blue October

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long? (ha!)

I want to carry a piece of who I was before
So when I hit the wall, I really hit the wall
I want to tear away the death again
A whiter shade of fucking meth again
I want to stick to clues, I want to come unglued
I want to shape the world to fit the way you move
Oh, should I listen for a dress size?

I owned up, I've grown up, do you remember me?
I showed up and so what if I'm the used to be
I'm here to tell you that I'm sorry I was sorry
But I'm happy that you're happy
This is no longer about me

Trade rules, switch sides for your beautiful eyes
Let him be you through your beautiful cries
Let him hold you up so you can touch affordable skies
Live your life just like a dream
Without the pain of goodbyes
Goodbye!

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?

I been a drunk disrespectful little street punk
Unlock the back of my trunk
You see, you take this bat
And bash my head into the street again
No-ones around so I keep beating it

Pull my hair back, look me in the eye
There's a self-destructive meaning in the bleeding of a guy
It's the guilt of what reality has given me
Making sense of all mistakes and my stupidity
And when you're sick you seem to think
You've failed eternally

And that the people you let in are only crumbling
When you're sick of faking life in this recovery
When my decision paved the road
That lies in front of me

So to my friends that even call but I don't call back
I want you deep inside my heart upon a hill
It seems to hide sometimes and run away and wonder
I'm really sick of saying sorry but I will

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?

But are we scared to take the ride?
Or dare to look inside?
I'm floating far away (far away)
I'm floating far away (leaving home)
I'm floating far away (so far away)
I'm floating far away

I want to learn to walk with others as an equal
I want to treat the ones who love me with respect
I want to tell the world I'll give them all a piggyback
And try to take away my negative effect
I want to kiss a girl and know I'll never lie again
I want to call my dad and tell him that I care
I want to let my brother know
He saved my life a thousand times
Throughout the years he's been my friend
Who's always there

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?

X-Amount Of WordsLyrics – Blue October

Relapse
Prevent trigger intent
Now drown
High strung
Say X amount of words

You're solar, bipolar
Panic disorder
Seems harder and harder and harder
Still you try to control it

You mold, you mold
Yeah you shape to mold
Oh you're bold you're bold
But your shape is bold

You're a symptom superficial
To what they call knowing you
Minus the speed,
Could you imagine the phobia?

Your brain is faulty wiring
the reason for tiring
Keep treating the curse,
Imagine the worst
Systematic, sympathetic
Quite pathetic, apologetic, paramedic
Your heart is prosthetic

A plate of quite peculiar
On a dish of my own
A tablespoon of feather
tickle me to the bone
Give me recipes for happy
with the chemicals gone
Drinking freedom from a bottle
to the tune of belong

I'm sick of shaking
never waking
from the hell I achieve
I never knew you till you left me
with the crying disease

Another curing, reassuring
way to buckle the knees
So mistreated, I repeated
Never blessing your sneeze

Now deleted and defeated
I will stand on my own
Yeah your memory that punches me
has broken the bone

Give me recipes for sorry
I'm admitting I'm wrong
Still your memory that punches me
has broken the bone

Drilled A Wire Through My Cheek Lyrics – Blue October

I try to stay on top of you
To hold your body down
Your shaking seems to hinder
Every grasp that I have found

Moving every inch around me
To defuse your private bomb
I stretch myself surrounding
And protecting you from harm

I use a wallet for your mouth
So when you bite you will not bleed
I drilled a wire through my cheek
And let it down and out my sleeve

And now you're pulling out the best of me
Yeah which never ever comes
This wires all thats left of me
And its hooked within my gums
Within my gums...

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[Kirk screaming]

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[Kirk screaming]

Its proof to show that I bleed for this
And I'd cut myself the shame
To get to know this masochist
Who has stolen my first name

Pretending he's a teacher
Holding all my weight at ease
Yet the teacher seems to split in two
Destroying both his knees

Now crawling I position myself
Below your broken wings
I lift your feathered left arm
Where you hide your heart from me

I never noticed it was swollen
With the touch of brutal pain
I never knew a heart could live inside
The rust from all your rain
All your rain...

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[Kirk screaming]

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[Kirk screaming]

I didnt think to bring a wash cloth
And rub away the dirt
Myself and I we share
This barely beating heart of hurt

And when the hurt comes theres an argument,
A fight to save a smile
A small attack on human tears
To dry them for a while

A dream we all should count on ;
Yeah a vision I believe
Where confidence is found
Attached to wires on our sleeve

Where loneliness is history
Told to pack his shit and leave
Where guidance is a fortune
Told to help in time of need

And were crying isn't secret
It's the art of how we griev
And lessons are the key
To every goal I will acheive
I will achieve

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[Kirk screaming]

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[Kirk screaming]

So drill it, so drill it
So hard
Feel it
[Kirk sreaming]

Sound Of Pulling Heaven Down Lyrics – Blue October

Somewhere, far away from here
I saw stars, stars that I could reach (yeah)
It was a midnight, a silent twilight
Fell down, beyond the ocean beach (yeah)

I assemble all the sand that cover wedding beaches
To build a castle so your mom would have a place to stay
Behind the water slide and down the hill where heaven reaches
Land and time is left to float away (yeah)

So rest assured I have the key to every opening
To every wishing well that's deep enough to dream (dream)
I want to show you just how fascinating kissing is
When earth collides with all the space between (yeah)

I'm reaching farther than I ever have before
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
I may be some sort of crazy
We may be some sort of crazy
But I swear on everything I have and more

So never look behind you, spooky people bring you down
The world is ending there's a party by the bay
I'll wear my suit and tie when I am
I am toasting to the way you put that smile upon my face (yeah)

Fill up the air balloon and ride with me
Yeah hell is jealous of the rain (rain)
Make love like time and space Is ending
While befriending fate's alluring way of putting us to shame

I'm reaching farther than I ever have before
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
I may be some sort of crazy
We may be some sort of crazy
But I swear on everything I have and more

You make the sound of pulling heaven down
You brought the rain's romantic pour
You make the sound
You make the sound
Of pulling heaven down

I'm reaching farther than I ever have before
(Tired of wasting time)
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
(tired of wasting time)
I may be some sort of crazy
We may be some sort of crazy
But I swear on everything I have and more
(go go go go)

I'm reaching farther than I ever have before
(Tired of wasting time)
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
(Tired of wasting time)
I may be some sort of crazy
We may be some sort of crazy
But I swear on everything I have and more
(go go go go)

Everlasting Friend Lyrics – Blue October

A heartbeat skip, relationship
Inside a bubble bath
An icing drip below your lip
So we undo the math
A sudden slip between
My pathetic sedatives
A real-life script of how
Mistakes became our medicine, so

Delay the hurtful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message that I'm
Picking up my chin at last
I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we pray from miles away
In quest for what we long to be

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
But you're my everlasting friend
Everlasting friend

A heartbeat skip, relationship
So we would stay up late
A teardrop drip below your lip
Beside the airport gate
A sudden slip from where
We used to be a year ago
A real-life script of how
Our hands would hold and not let go

But delay the mournful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message
That you taught me how to live at last
But I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we wave respect goodbye
In quest for what we long to be, but

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
But you're my everlasting friend

Will you be coming home?
(Everlasting friend)
My everlasting friend, will you be coming home?
(Everlasting friend)

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
I just want to know that you'll be coming home

18th Floor Balcony Lyrics – Blue October

I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?

My breath is on your hair
I'm unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
And we stand
Just taking in everything.

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony.
We're both flying away.

So we talked about mom's and dad's
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can't believe this is happening to me

And I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I'm so yours for the taking
That's when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me...

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
We're both flying away.

And I'll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
'til I can bring you home with me
I'll try to sleep
And when I do I'll keep you in my... dreams

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony, yeah

I knew it from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
No, we're not going to sleep

Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony... we're both..
Flying away

It's Just Me Lyrics – Blue October

I lost a piece of me in you;
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I cared quite a lot.

You see but lately I've been on my own.
Yeah one, but one by choice.
You see, that's a first for me,
There's only me, yeah theres only me,
And now I realize for once,
It's just me.
It's just me.
It's just me,
And I'll find a way to make it,
There's no one left to stop me.
Here I go.
Can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I'm already spent living half my life undone
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and wanna stay
And that's one good thing I have.

I'm gonna feel a peace in me,
I'm gonna feel at home.
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.
I don't wanna hurt no more.

Yeah it's just me.
It's just me
And I'll find a way to make it.
There's no one left to stop me.
Here i go, can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

So why so long?
So sad, i wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

It's me, the one who won before.
I used to smile but don't no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.

album: "History For Sale" (2003)

Ugly Side Lyrics – Blue October

I must have sneezed
On knees I freeze
I mean I just choked up
Somehow I slept
I dream, I mean
I dreamt of nothing
Able to breathe
A sweet relief
Now that you're here with me
A northern degree
Dove into me
Now I'm recovering

[Chorus]
I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
Not my ugly side

Hook up a C.B. Wave a way
For conversation flow
I'm shoved in your cave, to wage this rage
Don't let me go
A kick and a scream is all that seems
To mean a lot thus far
I won't let you on my stage, my page
You can't know
Yet you have to know

[Chorus]

So calm... and now it's dark
I look for you to light my heart
I'm in between the moon and where you are
I know... I can't be far

Clumsy Card House Lyrics – Blue October

By the way
By your side I'll stay
If that's okay
Then by your side I'll stay forever
Here I am standing up
Because I want to fall in love with you

A sunless day
It was a clumsy card house rape
If that's okay
Then by your side I'll stay forever

Here I am standing up
To say I want to fall in love with you
Forever
Here I am standing up
To say that I want to fall in love

All our kids will play
A sunless day
The rain will come
The rain always brings our hero
All our kids will play
A sunless day
The rain will come
The rain always brings our here

Believe in heroes

Razorblade Lyrics – Blue October

In the day by day collision
Called the art of growing up
There's an innocence we look for in the stars
To be taken back to younger days
When there was no giving up
On the people we held closest to our hearts

Yeah it is you that I remember in that glowing
It is you that took my first away from me
It is you I set my standards to... to every walk of life
I haven't met another you since you were with me.

[Chorus]
A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done

In a way, I failed religion
I spit the wine from mouth to cup
And I reached for something more than just your God
Uncle, you spared not your children
And while your praying hands are up
There's no forgiveness for you! You sick fuck!

It is you that I remember in their bedroom
It is you that took their first away from them
It is you they set their standards to
You wounded them for life
You were a preacher and suppose to be above men

Sing with me

[Chorus]
A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done

Calling You Lyrics – Blue October

There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said it a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away

Well expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're OK when I'm not around
Asking "if you love me"
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

[Chorus:]
I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost it's sway
It's so hard sometimes
Then I fell in love with you
Then came you
And you took that away
It's not so difficult
The world is not so difficult
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave me and send them back to you

I only want to see
If you're OK when I'm not around
Asking "if you love me"
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

[Chorus x3]